Saturday, October 07, 2006
It was graduation day at de centre i was attached to last sem.. So i was called to volunteer ma help and i asked agatha along.. So she came near ma blk and we walked down to de kindergarten.. as we were walking, she was toking abt de stuff dat has bn bothering me fpr quite some time.. i guess she agrees with wad i've decided.. but she kip comparing me with herself.. argh!! gal, ya story and mine ar totally different.. reali.. mayb a few similarities.. but jus stop with de comparing alrite! Anyway, den we saw mok's melons.. haha.. 2 bad, he wasn't ard to savour de pretty sight.. LOL!!! De kids were so excited abt de concert and i was trying to dress dem up.. it was rushing at times but i still enjoyed maself very mych.. its de pleasure of being with de children dat reali mattered ta me.. and ya agatha found a bf der.. haha.. he so damn cute.. and i became his sister in jus short while.. anyway, i was in his nursery class way baq in ma 1st year.. So he does recognise me and we were jus trying ta fool his classmates dat we were sibilings.. And den, shawn came ta fetch agatha afta de graduation ceremony.. We chatted 4 awhile.. agatha and i took pictures on his bike, and he was so scared dat his bike will fall and all.. haha.. afta dat i went baq hme.. and ya sumting so annoying happened.. Dis siva and his fren wanted ta mit near ma place and i said ok.. den wen i was going baq, he can even ask if we cud mit at 11 instead.. frm 7, it became 11.. i was so damn pissed alr.. i jus told him ta 4get it.. So irritating.. imagine being stood up 4 abt 4 times.. idiot la he.. he'll say let's go watch movie and all but he'll watch it b4 me and say sry.. Wah!! i reali hate it man! If u make plans, learn ta go according ta it.. Don't be so wishy-washy.. if ya've sumting else ta attend which is so impt tt ya've ta cancel de plans, of cos i'll understand.. but don't tell me tt it always happens so tt ya impt stuff crops jus wen ya plan ta mit me.. aiyoo.. Calm down!!Im still deciding wad can be done.. gonna be having a gd talk with dat person 2day.. hopefull all ends well.. But i noe dat both of us ar gonna get hurt in sum way.. Haiz.. It's jus starting ta get complicated..
*I gt reminded of ya 2day cos of shawn's bike.. Jus tinking y of all persons, ya had ta go.. its jus so unfair da.. in a way, ya ar spared de sufferings ya mite haf had ta go thru.. im still missing ya.. wish i cud be in ya arms.. de place whr i felt dat it was de safest ta be.. but now wen i thot i found sum1 i cud trust and smile again, i realised its jus not dat ez.. so i guess its btr ta let go den hold on ta make tings complicated.. ya live in ma heart always..*
hEarTbRokEn wrote on 5:50 AM.
