Saturday, September 22, 2007
Complications!

haiz. jus wen i thot all was ova. it had to start again. i tink its de final time. i am jus too tired to fite anymore. i donno wad i shud do. this is not me. i cant even bring maself to talk to someone abt dis. cos i maself cant believe that im in such a situation. FaRk la. im sad, kinda broken too. jus try not to ask me why? its a very sensitive issue that i cant talk to anyone abt it. i wish tings wud get better but instead its getting worse. I thot we cud be frens, well we tried to but i guess good tings don't always last rite. why did i even get maself into dis. im jus complicating tings for maself. well i jus needed an outlet to let out what im feeling. i'll definitely miss de idiot. if its dat's how its meant to be, i cant do anyting more. i wish i was by the seaside.....

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

You Always Hold a Grudge

If someone wrongs you, you aren't likely to forgive them. You figure they've showed their true colors. You've been known to cut people out of your life pretty frequently. And maybe you've even sought revenge a couple times!

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility. Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships. Whoever you love should be your best friend. And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question. Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

Your Superpower Should Be Mind Reading

You are brilliant, insightful, and intuitive. You understand people better than they would like to be understood. Highly sensitive, you are good at putting together seemingly irrelevant details. You figure out what's going on before anyone knows that anything is going on! Why you would be a good superhero: You don't care what people think, and you'd do whatever needed to be done Your biggest problem as a superhero: Feeling even more isolated than you do now

Thursday, September 06, 2007

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time.You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room.While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend.And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses.You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

You Are Basic Panties

You are a laid back chick with a real natural beauty. You can make unwashed hair and minimal make-up super sexy. Men tend to notice you show the "real you" - and they appreciate it. And while basic makes boring for some, it looks classic on you.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007
~Confused Mind~

Yet anoder late entry.. Jus felt lyk blurting out some of ma thots.. Kinda feeling abit lonely dis days.. I din realise it till dis few weeks when i wanted to tok to sum1 badly.. Clear ma thots and knock some sense into me.. i feel lyk a lost child in dis world.. i donno wad's going ard me.. I don even noe wad's going on within me.. But i noe that someone's gonna get very hurt theorugh dis ordeal im going thru.. i nvr had dis prob den y now? i wanna be free away from everyting.. its reali too much to handle.. i don wanna tink anymore.. all i wan is ma smile baq.. but onli i can do sumting abt it.. haiz.. lyf's full of complications eh? i wonder how to solve it each day.. instead of tinking for a solution, i end up getting more confused.. y did i let maself into dis shit?!! its not fair to dos ard me.. im reali sry if i had hurt u.. im bound to do dat somehow..

Enuf of lamenting.. its boring.. jus came baq frm a ngee ann lib and had a horrible dinner at Al-Ameen with pufi.. de food jus lost its tastiness.. oh, well i came baq hme and felt so miserable dat i decided to blog.. Its holidays for me and im catching up on ma slp.. well not for long, i gotta go baq to skool and do ma class for next term.. grr.. Time passes so fast, well i cant wait till de next skool holz.. Anw, im deciding to take degree nxt yr.. Hopefully i can pull thru it.. afta much thot, i decided i want to pursue ma career in psychology.. Its gonna be difficult as im gonna wrk and study.. wad's success without hardship rite.. i wanna make it as someone.. i know i can and i will..

4th Sep: ystrday was one of de days that i cherish most.. Cos it was de mark of 1yr of knowing ma dear moka!! It all started at de sentosa beach.. We got to know each oder btr, we got close and we stood by each oder till 2day.. Sadly, tings aren't dat gr8 as b4.. All good tings do come to an end rite.. Haha.. this doesnt mean im leaving him or vice versa.. i feel tings between us just lost its excitement and stuff.. Its lyk der's no more lyf in our relationship.. We have been seeing each oder for months alr, im sure its natural.. rite? we gotta wrk it out boy.. im sure we can pull thru.. for tt i mus help maself 1st.. i bet rite now, ya are cursing, 'its all becoz of u misha!' haha.. well, i nvr had de chance to say dis to u but i reali cherished de time wif u.. ya always stood by me, making sure i was ok and constantly loved me for who im.. all dis mean alot to me.. i wanna say a BIG thank-you for withstanding all ma nonsense and tolerating me.. I love you 4 dat. Hope tings get btr..

*Its not fair of me to continue wearing de chain so i took it out and gave to baq to u.. i need help and guidance.. pls show me de right path and take a decision which i wont regret.. im going mad la.. cant believe im toking to u abt dis.. it sux ya noe.. to be in dis kinda situation.. haiz!! its ok.. time will reveal all..*

Thursday, August 09, 2007
Im baq!

I was feeling kinda bored and realised it has been an awfully long time since my bolg was last updated.. So here i am.. Well i have been both bz and lazy.. Work is really tiring and all i want to do is to rest aftr each day.. Since today is national day, i thot of giving sum lyf to the dead blog.. :) Im having holz 2moro as well.. Whee~ Glad to be in de education sector for de holz.. While most of dem out der are slogging, i can take the much needed rest during this days..

Let me jus vent out all ma built up frustrations both in ma personal and work lives.. It was so much easier to work in groups in school.. We cud adjust and accommodate each oder so well.. but at work, i jus feel lyk tearing them apart.. grr!! so angry with dem.. Esp in the K1 level, which is where im in.. One of the teacher, jus drives me up de wall man! Always hand in her lesson plans late and never prepares her materials on time.. What the hell?! so how are the rest of the teachers to do their lessons.. All she does is to eat and eat and eat.. And she's farking thin, mind u! During assembly, she will drill the children to stand in a single square and stand super straight.. I'll get so pissed in the mrng esp if she doses that to my class children.. She claims that she used to be a supervisor in anoder centre.. Its so unbelievable dat she was.. I cant tolerate her nonsense any longer man!! One last chance for her; if she is gonna get on my nerves again, im going straight to the principal..

Whoa!! All built up frustrations let out!! Not all; der's more to come actually.. haha.. I do come to ma blogs to chk de tag boards and i see unknown ppl tagging.. both nonsense and somewhat logical questions.. I didnt noe i create such a impact in their lives that they are so interested with what i do and who im with.. Sheesh!! im honoured.. Thnx ppl.. Whateva im going to say is what i think and not aimed at anyone.. If ya start getting guilty with ya face turning red, i suggest u close the window and go do sumting more worthwhile.. Well, its more than a year since viky passed away.. I went to the temple with mokan and jus prayed for him.. Thanx alot for following me, it reali meant alot.. There are lots of times i think of him and wished he was still ard.. If he was ard, i wudnt be treated de way i was.. I cant do anyting cos i believe ppl very easily and failed to see their ulterior motive they have.. Yea im stupid.. i always have to learn the hard way.. So be super cautious with whoeva you are with.. You may nvr noe when they will turn their back and call u a bitch.. There are always 2 headed snakes everywhr.. Recently i got a tag frm sum1 named bee.. Do i have to ask ppl's permission to see someone or date them.. Don't i have the right to choose my life path.. I am moving on with my life but that doesnt mean i have 4gotten all abt viky.. He's still in ma heart and he'll always be.. None can change that.. This is MY life and only I can live it the way I want to!! So jus keep ya comments to yourself..

Ok now everyting is out.. Jus a note to end dis entry.. Right now, i am very happy and living my life to the fullest.. i have got everyting by me.. A gr8 job, loving family and wonderful frens.. Including the special one who will always stand by me good or bad..

*I still wish u were ard.. i miss you so badly at times.. all i can do is reminisce the memories we once had.. the 2 years are the most precious to me.. tho we had our ups and downs, undeniably we loved each oder very much.. I wish i had more time with ya.. I will always think of ya and continue loving ya.. God bless u my dear!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007
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