Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Camp at Saradha Kindergarten

Agatha and me at the campfire..

De cute lil one who talked so well. .cute smile he had!

Dis created an impact on me.. and i was so sad to leave dem. .haiz!!

cute lil boy again! and cute big gal.. :P

All acting cute.. Finally, all in same frequency. haha!

The helpful volunteers for the campfire..

Monday, November 20, 2006

Finally sum time and a comp to blog.. Ma comp is down for de time being. .so cudnt reali update.. and well, de pressure is on as the projects start cuming in.. aiyoo.. but i still mus push maself ta do well.. i tink i can.. i've got ma angels ard em ta help.. so yup.. i'll try ma bez ta update as often as possible oraitez..

Anyway, last weekend was a blast man! went to sarada kindergarten to do sum volunteering. it was 2 days and 1 nite camp for de k2s.. Damn cool sia.. de kids.. aiyoo.. jus love dem.. in de end, lyk so difficult ta leave dem lyk dat.. reali vry sad leh.. somehow managed ta overcome it.. haha.. iwas so damn tired afta de whole ting.. cudnt slp de nite b4.. flr was hard and had ta kip shifting de chn all nite.. den der was dis boy who woke up and was crying.. had to pacify him and put him ta slp.. i felt lyk 1 big mother der.. haha.. and i cant wait ta haf ma own chn.. dat is if i get married la.. sure will haf sum blockhead born for me rite.. wahaha. . nvm dat..

den i came baq, got dressed and went to pasir ris with boy and lavanya.. it was lyk a picnic and surprise 4 kavitha and rajes.. we supposed to mit at 2 noe.. end up mtg at onli abt 4 plus at pasir ris.. all thanx to ms kavitha.. aiyoo.. she ah.. haf de worse sense of timing sial.. change 4 de btr ma dear gal.. i punished her 4 being late.. cake facial! haha.. she so cute.. willy added mre cream to enhance her beauty even further. haha.. she so ang.. but she got her punishment.. haha.. spent very lil time with dem.. b4 i noe it, i had ta leave to go to ma uncle's place.. quite sad, din wanna leave.. at de same time, din wanna disappoint ma mummy.. so i stayed lil while more and took a cab all de way ta woodlands.. went der and realised ma darling were cuming aso.. so i was happier.. haha.. ma mikey, hayley and rosey.. hehe.. took pics with dem.. damn cute la dos lil ones.. and i was teaching mikey ta talk in tamil.. waah!! damn adorable la he.. hahaha.. i love him so much.. den we were watching ma mummy's and auntie's younger time video.. damn funny..
ma uncle tok so cutely and he even had dis cool dance step.. haha.. so robotic.. no matter wad de song or how long, dat step was consistent.. jus dat de speed either increased or decreased.. aiyoo.. i laffed till i fell of de sofa nad till ma stomach hurt.. so cute la he.. haha.. on de whole, even tho i was damn tired, i reali enjoyed ma day.. yup.. so ma weekdays are pretty much de same with projects, skool and hme.. haiz.. i'll update de picsa taken soon.. continue missing me oki.. haha.. =P

*Hi.. i've got so much ta tell.. and each time i tink of ya, i noe ya listen.. i jus kip tinking everyting dat's happening within me.. no matter how much i tink, its so confusing.. der ar sum tings dat has ta be hidden cos its not meant ta be shared.. haiz.. not many or actually no1 will understand wad's happening.. im not sure if i shud go ahead wit ma gut feeling or wad.. i reali don lyk de word hurt.. emotional hurt is de worse any1 can get.. haf gone thru and i noe.. jus stay with me thruout dis confusion and help me make a wise decision.. will u? 3 weeks ta de most memorable day i had 2 yrs ago.. and i love you 4 spending dat time with me.. im reali missing ya lots.. weneva i tink of dat day, how i wish it'll happen again.. haiz.. am gonna slp soon alr.. b4 dat mus do more projects.. nitez!*

Saturday, November 11, 2006
Senthil's 22nd Bday pics!

yea yea.. haf been hafing a pretty bz week.. by de time im hme, haf no mood to do anyting else but hit de bed.. haiz.. can imagine how tired im.. as if dat's nt enuf.. suddenly hafing body aches and de worse is de chest pain.. aiyoo.. hafing it 4 past 2 days alr.. but trying to tahan.. hope nthn happens. .haha.. well, if fate is lyk dat, no one can change it rite.. hmpf.. lyf can be very unpredictable.. so its bez ta take anyting into ya stride..

Ystrday was senthil's bday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENTHIL DEARIE!!
gave him a surprise at Ngee Ann.. He was reali surprised.. we got him a cake and a shirt.. spent de evening crapping in ngee ann.. i missed everyting sia.. it was reali wonderful spending time with dem afta such a long time.. senthil gave me a ride ard campus in willy's big bike.. whoa!! scary la.. he went so close ta de road at de bend.. but it was reali exciting.. haha.. was holding on so tightly.. crapped abit more and den we decided ta leave as de gals had ta get hme fast.. Wonderful willy, boy, black and senthil got on bikes on left soon afta. .dint even care how we were gonna go baq.. all de way out to the road, scolding dem.. haha.. kavi u damn cute sial.. love u loads dear.. it was nice toking to u. . thnx 4 listening.. Sum pics ta enjoy..

Sunday, November 05, 2006
Boy's 21st bday!

Bday boy with his angels.. :P

*dar.. It is diff.. without u.. how i wish u cud be here.. im beginning ta hate de way fate plays with ma lyf.. did i mention dat i chose de reality world instead of de dream.. part of de dream will still live with me.. however, its no longer de lyf im gonna lead.. letting go wasn't ez.. but somehow i had ta do it.. with feelings getting hurt.. b, it isn't ez ta be lyk dis.. but somehow, i end up in dis kind of situation whr i hafta choose either or.. jus hope dat u will look out 4 me.. i will always love u ma dear..*

Friday, November 03, 2006

Aiyo.. so long since i last updated.. all ready to vent out frustration built inside.. damn.. i dont understand y im getting blamed for tings i dint do at all.. dis is de 2nd time its happening.. dont reali wish ta say wad izzit.. its alr hurting to noe dat u were cause for sumting even if u weren't directly involved in the whole ting.. wad's even more hurting is dat both were ma gd frens b4 but due to some reasons we parted.. But still dont dis ppl noe btr abt me.. i reali donno wad ta say but its affecting me alot.. i wish i cud mend tings but i mite jus make tings worse rather den make it btr.. man!! lyf's difficult.. and anoder ting.. y ppl pretend so much.. say 1 ting and do anoder.. still wanna compare ya shitty ass with me.. damn.. im totally diff frm ya.. yea rite u love him alot.. lyk as if.. i dont wish ta let ma blood pressure shoot cos of ya..

i donno y but i feeling very weird dat sumting reali bad is gonna happen.. im nt strong at dis point of time and i've no1 ta lean on 4 support. .der were onli 2 who knew everiting abt me.. one is him and anoder ma bro.. one is high up in heaven while oder is too bz with skool stuff and his lyf.. im feeling as if i have been abandoned.. by de ppl i love alot.. im making mistakes continuously.. i jus dont understand y i cant learn frm ma intial stupid mistake.. haiz.. torn betw de reality and dream world.. i btr make a decision and stick ta it.. cos i cant carry on lyk dis.. i dont wanna a fake happiness.. sumhow, i love being a princess in de dream world den a lonely bitch in reality.. but as all noes, dreams ar just 4 awhile.. it can fade sooner or later.. im reali sry if i had offended any1 wit wat i jus said..

*I cant stop tinking abt everyting.. reading black's testi in ya page made me cry.. how u guys used ta be.. its so obvious as in how much he's missing u.. i wished i cud jus do aniting ta get u baq.. i wud love ta take ya place instead.. but its not possible.. i wan u by ma side.. guide me thru.. stick with me.. cry with me.. smile with me.. everiting u did b4.. i sooo badly nid a hug.. and how i wish it wud be frm u.. at least i gotta noe de truf abt ya feelings.. im happy wid dat.. can nva erase de memories and de love we shared.. love u always sayang!*